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The first time i saw the link being posted by some friends, I said ok… maybe its just a fine vid blog, so I didn’t intent to watch it. But i get conscious on the number of people posting on it so i dare to watched. By seeing those clips being shown by this man,  I was like… “As if he didn’t enjoy the country, for him to stay more than 3 years there. Then hes always stating the word “Pissed”, which makes me pissed as well… of him! On my head there are hundreds of reasoning running that I really wanted speak up right away, tell my thoughts about it and volunteer myself to defense my beloved Philippines. And besides there are also hundreds of countries out there who are facing same problem, America itself is included.

What I don’t like about this video is the often use of negative adjective words just to described how pissed he is… which make me feel more angry!

I admit I was hurt seeing this… But as it says, the truth hurts… tell me I’m wrong, since we were a kid we’ve witnessed this type of culture! We are capable of changing our future, Lets start today, lets start by ourselves, then to our family, then to the community… without knowing we are already affecting other people that leads of changing the future of this Nation!

It’s actually a tough question… for the 1st question that i have to answer i think going to be mind bugling…

Well… ”Why  has God made me the way I am, with my own particular strengths and weaknesses?” I had said its tough, because it really is… who knows whats in the mind of God? His thoughts and ways are far beyond that ours… even the most brilliant and genius people in the land can’t comprehend to the ways of God!

But ok, im gonna answer it this way… I had faced so much pain, trials and circumstances and all through out I remain standing and walking although there were times i thought im already crashed burdened and ruined. Those times make me stronger and wiser and more rational. And why has God let me face that? Why did He allowed that… first because of my disobedience… I am so stubborn and impatient that leads me to create wrong decisions in my life; second, so that i will be an inspiration, a testimony that no matter what God is with us… He never leave us nor forsake us! He is so good to us. Most of the time we neglect to recognize it because were to focus to things that is not worthy of living.

God has given us gifts to use it and if he found us trust worthy enough He multiply them. One of the greatest testimony in my life is the gifts that God has given to me… I am not boasting of my ability, but i am boasting God’s goodness to me. On everything i try, (Performing; dancing, acting, singing- crafting, cooking, creativity flow like Photography and Processing.. name them). I’ve noticed, if I recognized that each ability that i wanted to learn were from God, if He sees a passion in me, He let overcome them… recently I’ve been learning Photography, I’m enjoying it a lot and learning so much from it! Then I thought God didn’t want to be on that field, but He let me won the 1st contest i had joined… though im only a placer among the 40 participant who would have know i will be a 4th placer? Now i’m only waiting for His blessing to me… The arrival of my camera… i don’t want to be choosy, but God said, “Ask and it will be given to you” so God, I am happy with Nikon D90… its enough for me… good enough for me to start a business in Photography.

CONCLUDING this… God made us the way we are now according to His mighty plan, to equip us and be ready for the real battle. To be His servant, reach out for those who haven’t heard of His name… We all don’t need to go to a mission to be useful to God! We can be useful on our daily task… By declaring blessings to your brothers and sisters instead of saying a course or maybe let should say it “BAD WORDS” because you are not only putting dirt on your name or life but you also INFLUENCING other’s mind. They believe in you and think that it is the right thing to do! God gives you strength to overcome weaknesses, to defeat evil!

Be bless!

I remember 2 years ago, im busy preparing the stuff needed for the JNCIM Youth event the “Hearts day”! When suddenly im not prepared for the new to  come… i receive a call from the agency  who are fixing my papers for abroad… and they said, prepare your stuff and yourself, your flight is tomorrow afternoon, and i was like… WHAT??????

Honestly, i really have no idea that im about to leave any time of that week or month. In fact i don’t even have suitcase yet.. haha and my stuff are still stock on my drawer. After that call… i rush fixing things, call my mother who were in Laguna that time, so she travel the next morning, we went to Marikina to buy some stuff and toiletries… anything im gonna be needing abroad… (hope so) also suitcase which only cost P350.00! then went to the agency to take my papers, ticket, to report… actually that day, im about to take my NC2 certificate from TESDA, but unfortuantely due to lot of things to do… ive been rushing, took my lunch @ Hongkong noodles stand in LRT Taft station.

Then, went to NAIA, check in take flight 1 hour to Hongkong through Dragon Air lines, transfer to Cathay pacific, stop over @ Dubai for 1 hour and then here in Jeddah after almost 13 hours, I’ve waited at the holding area for like 5 hours until my uncle and employer came! Finally i meet them! and then 2 years after… here is now… im about to go back home! I really miss home…

I’d realize… even though this country helps a lot of Filipinos to have work, only few of them enjoy life here… its either you push yourself to enjoy or be part of activity that could consume your time, interest and money as well!

But many tries to catch fortune here.. well not me! I believe God only sent me here for training purpose… obviously ive learn a lot! and here I grow… i mean i become matured… as exact as my age… though sometimes I turned childish… now I know Im ready to fight for life! Dream big and work more harder! My fortune is not here… maybe for others their life is in abroad… I love being home, near with your inspirations, work with them and find time to spend for them! plus your far from vices… (not actually literal… hehe)

I have so much plan to do when i got home! so far… all I can do is prepare for it and ready myself to any controls and circumstances… This im not gonna let anyone decide for me… Its my life! 

I gonna make my choice and decision and blame no one because its me who choose that! And 1 thing I know for sure, and its proven… GOD’s favor is in me! all I have to do to trust in Him, obey and humble myself. because He gonna take me to higher places and higher level!

I’m grateful that I’ve been here… because of that… I’ve learn a lot, I grow, I improved, and i had so many friends! ^_^

I f i could remember last year, I am desiring for myself being into the stage of my favorite number(27)… i wanted to do something unique… something that i never done before… We’ll this year i had so much! Friends, Photography, Performances and i think new desire… hehe. I am grateful for everything i had, though i always say that i don’t really like here (in Jeddah). I’ve learned so much, my friends doubled (according to my FB accounts) ^_^. Another skills had been added to my Curriculum Vitae… Photography, Video Editing, Photoshop were some to mention.

This Year has been so good to me, the favor from the Lord that i always receive, the wisdom the safety not only for me, but also to my family and friends in the Philippines.

This year as i turned 28, (Oppsss… i’m still young pa pla… :P), I still wanted to continue learning those things that i have learned, but this time i wanted to be the best or at least my best! im done being a “SO-SO” (no so well, not so good). This time, i have to make sure, im well prepared and more confident. But still know being donw to-earth.

Im glad that I have my JCNIM Family to share blessings and love with, I’m really blessed being with them. Also my Photographer Friends, My Lenteque Family, also to mention the other group that i met! And Of course how could i forget my TFSJ (The Filipino Star of Jeddah) family, on whom I share same passion with, Plus the number of new friends and Orgs. woah… what else i could say….

I really love making friends….

On relation to my job, i learned a lot of techniques, and etiquette with regards in proper maintenance… and ofcourse one of the best that i have improve in this is “Patience” i know i maybe kind enough, but my patience is not long enough, but you have no choice… just try to understand them and their culture… i am in the foreign land .

And so, being 28… (what!!!! no way, it can’t be). But yeah, i have to accept it, though i don’t feel like i am, i feel like im 20teen (twenteen), hehe lols. Ok, Kidding aside, Im old enough now to take things very seriously… that means no more puppy love… lols. That simply means, i have to give my very best, and avoid to play safe. The past act i’ve done were just a part of trial and error, and now I’m ready to submit my finest act…. so be prepare, every nation! :)

There were actually lots of thoughts are in my head before i start this, but because of browsing from Facebook to tumbler, i get distracted and now i forgot what im about to say! yeah, Ive planned a lot to say because i only post a blog sometimes. hehehe… So i think I have to end it here. See you so soon! I’ll give you updates!

This past few weeks, i’ve been puzzled if i should continue the project i want to do! i know God has given me a vision on this, and i get so excited… too excited that i almost forgot to let God move and make His way! i worried too much, for the people i need to involved in here the equipment and location. What i saw is the difficulty and impossibility of the problem. Today, i receive inspirational quotes from all of my subscriptions, and all of them says, leave room for God to move, let Him give me the rain for the impossibility of my problem and that i should trust in Him! i admit…. these days, i turned so down and weak, physically and spiritually… Im sorry God, i neglect to give you thanks for everything, i should be thankful despite of my emptyness and praise Him despite of my weakness.

im thankful to sir Gary because although i only visit rarely, i get incourage in his post! God bless and more power po!

garyvsthoughts:

“Often times when we want to do something big, we tend to rely on the results our eyes would want to see. This isn’t exactly wrong but one must always leave room for God to be God. While reading The Message bible it was clear that when Jesus sent his disciples out into the world, He knew that He only had 11 men to start off this massive commission. He knew that this was gonna be “BIG” and yet He started it out with 12 men….including one who betrayed Him….to change the world. Sometimes the biggest fulfilled dreams and plans in our lives start from the most humble beginnings. When it comes to matters about the Lord, we need not think of how He’s going to move in ours or someone else’s life. He is a big God therefore it is only right to believe that He will move…in big ways. The following passage spoke to me. It showed me that one thing i need to do, in ever increasing measure, is to make myself available for His use regardless of situation I may be in at the time. I often concern myself with the limitations of my effectivity on stage as an artist. I believe that once we agree to trust Him in all areas of our lives, it opens up the room…. the space, for God to be and do all that He said He would inside a willing heart. When God calls you to do something only you can do…JUST DO IT. Matthew 10:9-10 (Msg) Don’t think you have to put on a fund-raising campaign before you start. You don’t need a lot of equipment. You are the equipment, and all you need to keep that going is three meals a day. Travel light. Be encouraged my friend. His plans are good…and always will be good for you.”

— Gary V.

The seed for a great miracle lies not in difficulty, but impossibility

for three weeks, im trying to cope myself in doing this, writing and thinking for the a big step, a new project! i don’t know…. but im taking it seriously now!

its always a dream to create a production team, ever since. Way back to Philippines, me and some friends from JNCIMP4 made a small movie clip, well its actually more likely music video presentation of Mr. Gary V. “GAYA NG DATI”. its for our church anniversary. But my ambition is  to do a full-length movie, a kinda movie for hollywood… haha…. or so like a “Tele-serye”, been writing couple of stories but none of them had finish, i’ve been discourage whenever i’m trying  to figure out how it would be like, without a production team. But this time, im willing to pursue this, with at least few people who believes in me, gives me the courage to finish this…. i actually called them “MY DRIVING FORCE” to push me, to help accomplish my goal, to make my first story (complete).

Aperture regards with my latest hobby, Photography. so i can mirror  myself about the story, but of course i don’t want it to be subjective to me. i actually been frustrated about the plots of the stories. putting up different scenes on each area of character’s life….. so frustrating, but i would never give up on this! I know God gave me this vision and the passion to do this, because He has planned it. my job is to do this! I know He will give me my Production team. The “CREATIVE VISION PRODUCTION”. And about the payment…. i believe He will give me people who after about the experience and not money!!! haha… there’s no way i could pay them! thats why i  call it “Indi-Film” a low-cost type of production. as much as possible to 0 peso, but i know it would be impossible. So God help me, i will give my best, and You my God will do the rest! thank you….

This is one of my favorite verse, no wonder!!!! i love being associated with people and being liked by them is a great thing! its a reward to consider! Having meditating this verse give me a sense of feeling that God like me, NO! He doesn’t just like me, He LOVED me, considering that He gave His Son to save my soul and be with Him in the Eternity! And the proof of saying God love me and like me is the favor i am experiencing at my current situation! Many people asked me about my job, what my employer was like and most of them, no… all of them were surprised and said, you have a good employer. i will respond immediately yes! Because its true they are really good and nice, and very considerate! that why I love them as well! But the fact is… before i leave Philippines I asked God if this is His will for me, to went here in Saudi Arabia, a country by which i have no single idea what life was like i want His favor to surrounds me. Yes His favor, i am surrounded by His favor, the protection, good health, good employer, not too suicidal type of work, good compensation on this term of field, day off, a God’s family which is same family as i have in the Philippines and a lot more! Isn’t it great? He is so good to me! He loves me and even though i failed Him sometimes… Hes always there for me ready to lend a hand!

(1.God, 2. people)

Its so true that  when God’s presence is with you, you will shine. You will shine brilliantly! Coz thats how His presence is. And people will see that manifestations. They will like you, and they will trust you! its so hard to gain someones trust especially when you not know them well. i had experience that people like me after they hate me… haha… not all! but most of the people i’ve met they thought at first that i am snobbish and rude boastful and so on… that’s my physical attribute is! I look so mataray according to them but on the latter part when they get to know me, i could say they like me more than they had hated me at first!

Recently couple of people address me as a nice person, one of the person they’ve known and a reliable one! woaah! thats hard if i disappoint them! But it makes me feel great hearing those words! that i am a good person. and many people trust me and rely on me! I thank God for that! i love doing simple favor for people to show them i am blessed and willing to share that blessings to them just as the verse in Genesis said. “I will bless anyone who blesses you, but i will put a curse on anyone who puts a curse on you. EVERYONE ON EARTH WILL BE BLESSED BECAUSE OF YOU” Gen. 12:3 (CEV). Isn’t it wonderful that the people of earth will be bless and you are the instrument of that! It is my intention why i love doing favor for others, also i found favor from and He found favor on me, so why not i will share favor to others, so that in those simple ways i can declare God’s goodness and encourage them to put their trust to God!

Also… the key for achieving what the Proverbs 3:4 says is on the previous and succeeding verse of it! HOW? simple…. on verse 3 says… “Let love and loyalty always show like necklace and write them in your mind.” that means if you do that the verse 4 will take effect… “God and people will like you and consider you a success” that’s the reward, But… on verse 5&6 the LORD gives direction… “With all your heart you must trust the LORD and not you own judgement. Always let Him lead you and He will clear the road for you to follow” (its the same as the verse we all know). By doing verse 3 the reward is verse 4 and by receiving verse 4 the warning or direction so that we could continue by doing so!

May God bless us all!